8/12/10 Katie's Healthy Eating Journal: Thursday

Fears. As the expected due date gets closer I realize I have a lot of fears taking over me. I usually can only sleep until about 4 in the morning and then I lie there until 7, fall asleep for an hour, and wake up for the day. While I'm trying to fall back asleep usually all my worries, stresses, and fears haunt me. There seem to be a lot of them lately...hopefully most pregnant women experience these same sort of fears. I'm terrified of the delivery. Is it going to be painful? Hours and hours of trying to push is frightening to me. Will we lose all our friends since we are pretty much the first of our group (except for one other couple...which does make it nice since we have a lot in common with them) to have a baby? What if I'm not a good parent? What if my eating disorder became apparent to my child, or even worse, he or she had one too? What if I'm never able to do fun things with my friends again? What if I get a really difficult baby - will I be able to handle it? What if going back to work is as hard as everyone says it is? Will my child be healthy? Will my dogs get along with the baby? Some of my fears may sound more important than others but to me they are all important and concerning. I am sure this is probably just typical fears of the unknown but having a new life that is our sole responsibility is a scary thing. Mostly I try to think positively but in the middle of the night those thoughts keep creeping back into my head. THURSDAY Breakfast - 100 cal English Muffin, 1/4 cup Break-free Eggs, 1 Morning Star Veggie Sausage 3/4 cup cantaloupe Lunch - 2 slices whole wheat bread, lettuce, tomato, fat-free mayo, and 1 slice low-fat cheddar Fat-free yogurt Snack - Peach Dinner - 1 cup refried beans, salsa, 1 slice mozzarella in a whole wheat tortilla with lettuce and tomato Snack - 100 cal pack